February 2012
24 posts
CALL 911 NOW
Hahahahaha, I’m having the time of my life! I’ve finally got the bottle and I broke my razor blades up into seperate little blades so they’re easier to hide. Now I’m at dance class, waiting until I can go home and cut. Fun fun fun fun fun fun. FUNFUNFUNFUNFUN. fun.
So, I’m just sitting here listening to “First of the Year” by Skrillex and I smile every...
UNBORN VOL. 1
So, my peeps, I’m writing a manga! It shall be called UNBORN.
When i post the chapter cover, I’ll give ya’ll a summary.
Untoucheable.
I’m becoming untouchable. The ones I love and crave attention seem to ignore me now… but I still love that one person very much… I have loved them for a year and a half now, but they are with some other person and now, apparently, have no room for me in their heart. They go around talking about themselves and their boyfriend all the time, even when they know I love them.
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Selective Mutism?
So, can anyone give me the exact definition of selective mutism? I think I’m coming down with it, just from what I’ve heard about it. I hardly have anyone to talk to that I can trust (one person, actually) and I can’t even trust my mom or dad and all but one sibling would either be hateful or gossip about me to the whole family. So most of the time now, I just shut up and let...
Same old you, Same old me
(Last year)
Mom: have you gained weight?
Me: no...
Mom: oh, it looks like it.
Me: *whispers* great... thanks.
Mom: maybe, if you were really concerned about your weight, you'd diet and excersize.
Me: yeah.
And this, my friends, happens regularly. And it's probably one of the main reasons I try my hardest to drop pounds. Yep, the starving and excorsize. : ) of course I'm super happy the whole time, can't you tell?
My stupid mom-
Augh, I don’t understand you at-freaking-all!
And you obviously don’t understand me.
You trash talk me and everything else moving or living or anything else like you know everything! You don’t know a goddamned thing about me! NOTHING! You don’t know that half of the cuts are your fault and that every time I throw up, it’s you telling me how fat I am that’s...
Idiots
*sigh* I just hate it when people are assholes to me. My mom and my sister are trash talking me and my friend Trinity right in front of me…
they’re talking about how something bad must be going on between us. They were gossiping how we’ve lost alot of weight and so we must be on drugs or some shit. I seriously wish I could just slap the fuck out of my mom sometimes and just...
????
So… what do you do when you’re just tired of everything? I’m so sick and tired of sitting here by myself. I want my best friend to come over, but if my mom actually came home for once, she’s be pissed that I didn’t ask and lock me in my room again. Urrg, I hate that woman…. I mane, I love her of course, but she makes me soooo angry…
But back on the...
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Stupid Assholes at my school...
Me: *sitting minding my own goddamned business*
Douche: I hate to tell you this but you look uglier than hell in those glasses.
Me: * whispers* thanks. I really wanted to hear that
Douche: Yep, you're welcome.
Me: -seriously, if you only freaking knew how hard I want to punch you right now...-
Douche: *staring at me cause I'm glaring*
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WHAT I WISHED HAPPENED
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Him: You look uglier than Hell in tho-
Me: *PUNCH* SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU DICK!!!!
Him: *cries*
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But that never happens, does it?
My emotional side of the story...
You know, lately, I just kinda feel like a robot or something… Kinda like I’m not here or something. Like I’m just a shell and I’m just watching, letting Neirad take over…
Hold up, I’ll rewind ‘cause some of you might not know me.
Neirad is my other personality. I have Multiple Personality Disorder (also called Dissasociative personality disorder) and I...
Busy Being Born
Hey everybody who is caring enough to even consider reading this
You’re wondering what the hell is up with my tumblr URL, right? Well, wonder no longer! I shall explain!
We’ll, I heard in this script I was reading through a really great quote that really spoke to me. I wondered about it for a long time! It really made me wonder about myself for a while, so here it is:
“Well,...
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February 2
So, I’m really proud of myself for what I’ve acomplished today! Today, the only thing I’ve actually injested is a glass of milk! I actually ate 2 breadsticks, 2 reeses cups, and one Mr. Goodbar thingy. But I threw those up after I ate them. I just hate myself so bad when I eat! I automatically think about how fucking gigantic I am… God, I seriously wish I wasn’t...